Home
Despite
the fact that it was in the middle of the night, Aunt Jada had the entire
household awake moments after they arrived in Triger. Aunt Jada and Emalia had
moved into the townhouse to be close to the docks in case any news came. There
was celebration in the air as the weary travelors tromped inside to be greeted
by overjoyed family and servants alike. Aradon had a wealth of excited servants
taking supplies from them and moving Aunt Jada’s welcome reception from the
entrance way into the parlor. Aunt Jada didn’t seem to mind as long as she was
allowed to continue hugging everyone within reach. The only low moment was the
fact that Dabria stood more on the sidelines and barely acknowledged the hugs
and kisses she was given. Justin’s heart hurt for her as he watched Salena give
her best friend a hug only to receive nothing in return.
Salena
smiled sadly and whispered to her friend, “It will be okay. Now that you are
home you’ll get better quickly.”
Tadi
had obviously kept his promise to Justin to help Salena get through this.
Though he gave Dabria a welcome home hug, his eyes never strayed from the other
girl. Justin kept an eye on the three of them as he glanced around the room.
With the exception of Namid and Maath, who had elected to stay on the ship
until morning, everyone who meant something to him was here. Tommy and Kiliki
sat next to each other, holding hands, as they talked to Sahen about their
time. Evyn carried his daughter, Rosalyse, in one arm and kept his other around
his wife, their heads bent close together. Aunt Jada bounced happily from group
to group, keeping an eye on everyone, as if afraid they might disappear into
smoke. Adem was tugging on Tadi’s arm and had soon drawn the young man over to
roughhouse with him, though Justin noticed their game never took them to far
away from Adem’s parents. Walton was gone and the family was safe, but the
marks he had caused remained and they would see things differently from now on.
The
family talked for what seemed like hours, while Aradon kept the servants busy
with a continuous supply of food and drinks being moved around the room. The
servants seemed just as happy to be able to serve tonight as the family was to
be able to sit together and talk. It wasn’t long however before Dabria’s head
slowly dropped and settled onto Salena’s shoulder. Justin smiled, weary enough
to want to fall asleep himself. Aunt Jada looked up and noticing the sleeping
girl, immediately clapped her hands causing stillness in the room, as both
family and servants turned to the matriarch.
“All
right, everyone, while it is wonderful you are all home and I want to talk to
you for hours more, I shall have to contain my wishes until tomorrow. It is
time for bed. Dabria needs her rest and so do the rest of you, I wager.
Tomorrow, we shall have a wonderful day with a picnic out by the lake. Dabria
needs to have things go back to normal for her, so that she can see she is no
longer surrounded by the horrid man and his crew. A picnic and a horse ride is
just the thing. We shall sleep in tomorrow and then we shall leave as soon as
everyone is ready to go. Aradon, see that it is all ready.” Aunt Jada looked to
Aradon, who nodded calmly. “Now, hustle to bed, hustle to bed!”
Everyone
laughed at her obviously joyful commands and trouped up to their own rooms. It
had been a long day and the rest would feel wonderful.
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Salena
ushered Dabria into the parlor and directed her to a seat, before collapsing
next to her. The women in the room looked up quickly at the obviously tired
girl.
“Oh
no,” Kiliki moaned. “Another rough night, Salena?”
Salena
straightened slightly and answered, “Yes. She woke three or four times and
cried out for him. She was mumbling about being alone again. I thought things
would get better as time passed, but it only seems to get worse as she figures
out he’s not coming for her.”
Kiliki
frowned and Emalia covered her sister-in-law’s hands with her own. “She’s
readjusting. That’s all. Give her more time. It’s barely been a week. She’s
going through quite a large number of changes quickly.”
“I
wish we could do more. It seems like we’ve tried everything,” Kiliki murmured,
misery in her voice.
Aunt
Jada snorted. “That is because we have!”
“Aunt
Jada!” Emalia protested.
“Well,
it’s true,” Aunt Jada exclaimed indignantly. “We never leave her alone. For
heaven’s sake, Salena even moved into her room! She does daily tasks with
minimal help, we have her play with Rosalyse as much as we can,” Aunt Jada
paused in her list to motion to the sleeping child in her cradle. “She follows
Kiliki around as Kiliki follows Adem, we force her to eat, why, I even take her
for walks in the garden and we discover all the mistakes that fool gardener
keeps coming up with. Why that man can’t get a simple garden right, I will
never know!”
“Your
garden is anything but simple, Aunt Jada, and we all know he is a wonderful
gardener, you are just particular.” Emalia responded with a fond smile.
Aunt
Jada let out a humph and continue her
harangued, “The point, my dear, is that we have done everything humanly
possible to help Dabria. There is nothing more that we can do!”
“So,
should we just give up? Is it hopeless then?” Kiliki asked, startled.
Aunt
Jada’s face quickly changed from incensed to gentle. “Of course not, darling.
Only at this point, humanly we can only continue what we are already doing. God
must reverse what the child has done to herself. Our answer is no longer in
this world, but in the supernatural one of the God in heaven. It is in His
hands when the child will awaken from this.”
“But
when will that be, Aunt Jada?” Salena questioned quietly from her spot next to
her best friend. “She doesn’t even recognize us! Not even Kiliki! You have to
ask simple questions to get even the smallest of responses from her...except of
course when you mention him.”
Salena’s spoke the word ‘him’ as if were the vilest on earth.
The
family had stopped using Walton’s name whenever Dabria was around. It was the
only name she seemed to understand and the one name she would respond to
emotionally. Her eyes would light up if she thought he was near or sadness and
confusion crossed them when she was told he was not around and could no longer
harm her. It brought the family pain no matter how they responded, so
eventually it was decided it was best to not mention his name at all and
hopefully the hold it had over her would release as well. So far, however, such
had not been the case.
“Yes,
well him can just go to…”
“Aunt
Jada!” Kiliki and Emalia both cried out at the same time.
“What?”
Aunt Jada looked at them with wide innocent eyes. “I didn’t say anything yet!”
Kiliki
sighed and shook her head. “Sometimes, Aunt Jada…”
“Yes?”
Aunt Jada questioned with a smile.
Kiliki
laughed and finally responded, “Never mind.”
Aunt
Jada nodded her head as if justified. “We pray, my dear children. It is in
God’s timing, so we pray. She will recognize us again. We will continue to tell
her who we are before we speak. We will show her that despite what that heathen
obviously forced her to believe, we did not abandon her and he is not the only
one who’s ever cared about her. We continue to shower her with all the love and
affection we can muster, both in our voices and in our touch. We give her every
reason to know that we are here and we love her as we always will. And finally,
we pray. We pray with everything we have that the Almighty Jehovah, the Great
Healer, will reach down and touch her mind to uncloud it and bring her fully
back to us. That is what we do today and tomorrow and for as long as it takes.”
“Faith
is never so hard as when you cannot see the results you wish for,” Kiliki
whispered.
“Faith
is assurance of things hoped for, proof of things not seen,” Emalia quoted from
the Good Book.
“Hence,
why it is called faith,” Aunt Jada added.
“Father
God, you alone know all that our Dabria was been through. You alone can bring
her out of the state she is in and back to the family that loves her. Please,
heal our sister. Heal her mind and her heart, allow her to see the truth before
her. And help us all to have faith and trust in Your love and plan,” Kiliki
spoke out loud her impromptu prayer.
“Amen.”
The other three room responded together.
Dabria
blinked her eyes slowly, but said nothing.
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“I
don’t care what you say! I heard her!” Aunt Jada proclaimed loudly.
“We
believe you, Aunt Jada! But you want us to go right now?” Tommy tried to calm
his aunt and clarify at the same time.
“Right
now! The girl asked to go on a trip. We are going on a trip!” Aunt Jada
responded, before turning and rushing out of the room, calling Aradon’s name.
Those
left behind laughed at her antics, but quickly sobered as Salena entered the
room with Dabria at her side. Justin looked at the girl he had fallen in love
with and wished desperately he could recognize the light in her eyes. They
seemed so dull when she looked around the room as if her spirit had left her
and only the shell remained. And yet there were times, when Kiliki would touch
her and the spirit would spark in them again. Occasionally, when he spoke to
her, he could see that same spirit ready to jump out and yet it seemed like
something blocked the pathway. While he didn’t know what it was, that didn’t
stop him from desperately wishing he could help her to get rid of it.
Kiliki
turned to Dabria. “It’s Kiliki, Dabria. Sweetie, would you like to go for a
ride? Would you enjoy a ride?”
Dabria
turned towards the sound and seemed to frown in concentration.
“Dabria,
would you like to ride a horse?” Kiliki tried again.
“Okay,”
Dabria responded, as if still thinking about the words.
Kiliki
shrugged. “Well, maybe she did ask for a ride. I don’t know, but Aunt Jada is
certainly convinced. We are going for a ride.”
Adem
clapped his hands in delight. “Yeah! I want to ride Black Thunder!”
“Oh
really? You think you’re old enough for that horse? He is quite a bit to
handle.” Kiliki smiled at her son.
“I
am absolutely old enough!” Adem responded indignantly, fists tightened at his
side in protest.
Tommy
grinned and patted his boy on the head. “Yes, you are at that. You’ve been
growing up in leaps and bounds. All right, you may ride him, but you need to
stick close to either Tadi or myself. Understood?”
“Yes,
Father,” Adem replied quickly.
“Come
on, Dabria,” Justin said walking over to her and Salena. “Let’s go get your
horse ready.”
Dabria
turned again to his voice and he took her hand to lead her out of the room.
“Salena
are you coming?” Justin asked.
“As
always,” Salena responded, stepping back to Dabria’s side.
The
three moved through the house and down the path towards the stables. It almost
felt like old times with just the three of them together again. And yet, there
was one drastic difference.
“Have
you noticed any change at all?” Justin questioned.
“Some.
She seems to respond to touch best. She used to shrink from it, but not
anymore. Now, she seems to crave it.” Salena looked down to where Justin was
still holding on to Dabria’s hand. “She wouldn’t have tolerated that earlier.”
Justin
nodded. “I know. I feel like I have to keep a hold on her or she is going to
fly even farther away.”
“I
don’t think that’s the case,” Salena thought at loud. “I’m hoping when she does
decide to fly it will be towards us and not away. We were talking only a couple
of days ago how we are doing everything we can and at this point we have to
pray to God that He will heal her mind and bring her back to us.”
“We
will have to see,” Justin answered.
Salena
nodded and took Dabria’s other hand. “Dabria, what horse would you like to
ride? Lady’s Rose is ready to go. She missed you while you were gone. We could
have Laton saddle her. Would you like that?” Salena asked, mentioning the
stable hand.
Dabria
seemed to think about it for a moment, but no response followed.
Salena
let out a little sigh, but continued as if Dabria had answered. “Okay, then
we’ll saddle her. The weather is beautiful today. You picked a perfect day to
ride and I know Aradon will have Cook pack up something delicious for lunch. Do
you remember when we were kids and we use to sneak down to the kitchen to eat
the leftover desserts? That was the first time we met Tadi. He was doing the
same thing. We had so much fun back then. Do you remember? We got into so much
trouble too.”
Justin
laughed. “Yes, you did. It’s amazing you’ve survived this far with all your
limbs in tack.”
“Ha,
ha,” Salena responded, but with a smile.
“Salena!”
Tadi’s voice called from the direction of the stables. The young man waved and
walked over to them with a grin that was obviously for Salena alone. “Have you
guys come to ride?”
“Aunt
Jada believes Dabria told her she wanted to go for a ride. So, she’s informed
the rest of the family we are all going,” Salina said, smiling back.
“That
sounds like Aunt Jada! I’d better help Laton then. That’s a lot of horses to
saddle.”
“We’d
like to have Dabria saddle her own, if that’s okay,” Salena requested.
“No
problem. Do you think it will help?”
“Who
knows what will help, but working together with us has to do something right?”
Salena asked, more than stated.
“I’m
sure it does,” Tadi reassured. “Your love for her is what matters most. She’s a
strong girl and she can feel that. Even if we can’t tell right now.” Tadi
turned towards his friend. “You’re strong, aren’t you, Dabria?” Tadi asked with
the confidence of one who already knew the answer.
Dabria
seemed to smile, but that was the only real response.
Justin
squeezed her hand. “She’s the strongest girl I know. Come on, let’s get your
horse saddled.”
The
four friends continued towards the stable, laughing and talking together.
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Things
were still wrong. It had been so long since things were right, but she couldn’t
really remember what was right anymore, only that it was better. She hadn’t
heard his voice in so long either, the one who was suppose to protect her and
the only one who cared about her. Who was that?
Walton.
That was his name. Where was he? Why wasn’t he with her? The people around her
use to mention him, but they hadn’t in a long time. And whenever they talked
about him they sounded mean and angry. What had he done that had angered them?
He was suppose to make her happy. But she wasn’t happy. Was she? She seemed to
be upset. Yes, she was upset because things should be right and they weren’t. But
she couldn’t figure out why.
The
haze surrounding her mind floated in and out and it kept the answers she wanted
desperately far away or not there at all. She couldn’t be sure of what happened
around her. The words people spoke and the things they did never really made
sense. She only knew that she didn’t feel so lost here. Something made her feel
safer than before. Was it the voices? There was so many of them. She couldn’t
remember the last time she had heard so many voices.
Walton’s
was the voice she knew. His was the one that told her it would be okay and that
he would take care of her. She belonged to him that was what he had said and
she knew it was true. But somehow that didn’t seem right. Something had always
seemed wrong about that. Like something inside her whispered that it was a lie
and she had to keep believing. But she wasn’t sure what to believe in anymore.
There
were so many of these new voices and they all told her different things. They
told her Walton was bad and he couldn’t hurt her anymore. Had he hurt her? She
couldn’t remember that. They said he wouldn’t come for her, but they didn’t say
why. Where was he? Why didn’t he want to be with her anymore? What had she done
wrong?
The
voices said that they loved her, she was strong, they wanted her to get better,
and they would take care of her. She thought she understood that, but the haze
made what should have been simple, so hard to grasp.
She
heard one of the voices again as it spoke to her. Something touched her hand, a
gentle, but firm touch. It helped her hand to move along something soft and
silky. Whatever her hands were on shifted slightly. She could feel it going in
and out and in and out. Slowly, her own breathing timed to this new rhythm. She
moved her hands up and down the softness. She had felt this before. It was
familiar touch, but she couldn’t place it. She wasn’t sure how or why she knew
it, but it brought her comfort. She smiled at the feeling that this was good
and spread her fingers wide to feel it better. She felt another hand touch hers
again and she moved. It wasn’t a coarse hand and it didn’t hurt her.
She
remembered something, something about Walton. Had the voices been right and he
had hurt her? She thought he wasn’t always as gentle as this hand was. This
hand took hers and allowed hers to move up and down the silky softness
smoothly.
The
voice that she heard wasn’t Walton’s. Whoever he was, he spoke gently and
calmly. He told her the horse liked her. She liked horses too. She wasn’t sure
how she knew this, but she was sure it was true. She smiled. He allowed her to
pet the horse for a moment longer, before speaking to her again and guiding her
backwards. She felt hands on her hips and then she was lifted off the ground
and placed on top of something. It took her a moment to realize it was the
horse. The hands that had touched her so gently before handed her a rope and
fashioned her hands over top of it, making her hold it a certain way.
By
now, more voices had joined them and the touch left. Why did it leave? She’d
enjoyed that touch. It was so gentle and calming. She had missed feeling a
touch like that. Walton wasn’t here, and yet she was being touched. She wanted
things to be good and safe and for the bad part to go away. Was she finally
safe again? Nothing made sense to her! If only the haze would go away and she
could think and see clearly again!
She
felt the horse beneath her move and she enjoyed the wind in her air and
brushing against her face. She could hear the voices around her talking and
laughing. She wasn’t sure how much time passed.
These
people did seem to care and love her. Their touch was gentle and their voices
were calm. They didn’t scare her. She used to be scared. Walton scared her. These
people gave her peace, whoever they were. They must have a reason to care about
her. She knew the answer was somewhere inside of her. It was as if some part of
her was locked behind the haze. Until she could find the key and cross the
haze, it would remain locked. She could only hope she found it soon. That would
make her happy once again.
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Justin
sighed and ran a hand through his hair. He knew this point had been coming and
there was nothing he could really do about it. He needed to think clearly and
he couldn’t do that here. Kiliki had said that he needed time to process and
take time alone with The Guardian Star,
something that was not possible in this house. It was worse than a large port.
People were constantly stopping by to wish the family well and insert
themselves into the scandal of a kidnapping. Plus, there was Dabria. When he
was around her, he could think of nothing but her. Of course, that applied to
when he wasn’t around her as well. He hated to go away from her, but at the
same time he knew it was what he needed. It didn’t have to be for a long time,
but in order to think he needed the solitude and comfort of the sea. His ship
was waiting.
He
walked into the parlor to find Salena patiently trying to help Dabria draw. The
girl moved her hand with Dabria’s over the paper and made comments on the
beauty of their progress.
Salena
looked up at his entrance. “Hello, Justin.”
“Hi.
I need to talk to Dabria. I was thinking we could go for a walk in the garden.”
“I’m
sure she’d love that. This wasn’t going very well anyway.” Salena took the
pencil from Dabria’s hand and pulled the paper off her lap.
Justin
walked over and helped her to stand. “Dabria, it’s Justin. Will you take a walk
with me?”
Dabria
tilted her head to the side and then nodded.
He
led her outside and into the garden where they could talk. Justin took a quiet
moment to study the young woman. Her hair had been pulled back from her face
and tied at the nape of her neck. A few rebellious strands had escaped to grace
the side of her face. Her blue eyes that normally sparked with life and mischief,
seemed dull, and yet he could tell the Dabria he loved was still there. Her
face still had the look of a pure, sweet pixie and yet had matured into that of
a grown woman. She had always been small in stature and even now her head
barely came up to the top of his chest. Despite her hazy mind, she still
managed to walk with a grace that was all her own.
The
thought of having to leave her even for a few days made his chest tighten. He
wanted to be around as she began the process of waking from the haze that
surrounded her. But over the last couple of days he had grown more restless as
if something inside him was warning him he could no longer put off his own
decisions.
Slowly,
he stopped their progress and led her to one of Aunt Jada’s many garden benches,
helping her to sit and then taking the spot next to her. He took a deep breath
and secured her soft, warm hands back in his.
“Pixie,
can you look at me?” He was please when her face turned towards his voice.
“You’ve been so strong. I’m proud of how you have been trying so hard to get
better. You improve more each day. That’s how I know it is okay to leave you
for a little while. I have some things that I need to take care of. I can’t
figure them out here. I’m focused too much on what’s happening here…on you.”
He
lifted a hand to her face. Her face turned towards his touch and pressed
against it. A small smile appeared on her. He wondered what she was thinking in
that moment. If only her eyes would respond as well and show the spirit of the
Pixie he loved.
“I’ve
learned a lot over the past few years, but no more so than the past few months.
I have some decisions I need to make. I have all the information I need and no
one can help me anymore. The problem is I need to talk to God myself now. I
can’t become the man you need without figureing out who I am in Him first.
There are too many distractions here to do that. There is simply too much going
on and I think better on the sea anyway. I won’t be gone long, perhaps only a
few days.”
Dabria
seemed to be paying attention, because she frowned as he spoke of leaving.
Whether that was because of the words or his tone of voice Justin wasn’t sure.
He had no way of knowing if she really understood, but he knew she was at least
listening. His chest tightened as he wondered whether she understood or if she
cared.
“I
love you, Dabria.” The words were out of his mouth before he realized what he
was saying. He looked at her in shock, but her face remained unchanged. He
curled his fingers against her check and stroked it gently. “I love you,
Dabria,” he repeated. “I’m coming back for you soon. We will figure this whole
mess out as soon as you are well enough. That I promise you.”
Justin
paused and looked more closely at her. A single tear had escaped from her eye
and was running slowly down her check.
“Dabria!
Are you crying? Why? What did I do?”
He
stood and pulled on her gently, tugging until she came into his arms. He
gathered her close. “Don’t cry, Dabria. Whatever is wrong, don’t cry. I’ll be
back. We will fix everything then. It will be all right. You’ll be happy again.
I’ll be back. I love you.”
He
held the girl in his arms for a long moment and almost without realizing it
sent up a prayer to God for her comfort and healing.
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Dabria
felt the moisture slip down her cheek. She thought that meant she was crying.
The man’s voice was so serious and the words he spoke seemed very important.
She couldn’t understand everything he said to her or what all the words meant,
but she could understand the emotions. He seemed so sad and that made her sad
as well.
She
felt him pull her close and she nestled against him. She wanted them both to be
happy again. That was what she should be asking for, that these people who
cared so much about her be happy and safe together. That was what was good. But
something inside her cautioned that all wasn’t that way yet, that something
important was missing. It was what she was waiting for, only when the missing
part was in place would she be able to be well again. She wasn’t sure what it
was, but somehow she knew that Whoever was looking out for her knew and she
would be made well when it was time.
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